Wednesday, January 28, 2015

4 years later...

wow. i now have not 1, but 2 little ones and i have taken some time off from farming. this year i am getting back to it, with my little ones in tow! my son is now 4 and my daughter is 1. and i have stayed close to food and farming all this time, because that IS my passion! and now, i start again.


when i saw this contest sponsored by gillette, i thought it was kismet. the first prize is EXACTLY the amount needed for my farm start-up. second prize isn't too shabby either. and i discovered it mere days before the deadline. This post is a part of #UseYourAnd activity at BlogAdda in association with Gillette Venus“    updateI'M GOING TO DO MORE RESEARCH, BUT IT LOOK LIKE I NEED TO BE AN INDIAN CITIZEN TO ENTER THAT COMPETITION. SHUCKS.

i want to pursue my long-time passion, of farming organically and raising my family on the farm. i want to foster healthy relationships within my community and with the natural environment. 
I WANT TO BE A FARMER AND A MOM.
i think it can be tricky, the whole "you can have it all" thing. i do believe in myself, as a farmer and a mom. but i think the key for me, is, not without support. emotional, physical, financial, spiritual, and so on. we all need help, and it can be really difficult to acknowledge that, or ask for it. 

for more information on my background, the farm start-up, and to view the video, please visit the fundraising page: https://www.youcaring.com/other/help-mira-start-her-family-farm-/293552

thanks for the consideration! -mira and family 


Sunday, May 8, 2011

The Farmer Formerly Known as Pregnant



Ha! I'm back for a quick minute, on Mother's Day, and soon after little D's 6-month bday!

Things have been AMAZING; he is so sweet and fun and funny. Ger and I have such an extraordinary, brilliant time with him; what a life!


Not to say it isn't all so very exhausting and challenging too. I've been back at work for 3 months. My return could have gone better, could have gone worse. But spring has sprung, the momentum of the growing season is building, and I think Mercury is finally out of retrograde. So that's all good.


After D's birth, I got a card that said something to the effect of, "Cherish every moment, even the sleepless, crying fits in the middle of the night. It's all so fleeting." Another friend shared, for times of distress, "The days [and nights] are long, but the years go by fast. This too shall pass, Mama."


Sometimes it is hard to enjoy every moment. To take the challenges in stride, and with grace. But wow, looking back you realize how fast the past 6 months have gone, how INCREDIBLY MUCH he has CHANGED. It's overwhelming, and so very heartbreaking to say goodbye to all these phases of our life together, goodbye to all his former selves as he evolves into this new guy with new tricks, every week, month, etc. It is all such a gift; and in order to really honor it you need to be aware, present, and in awe, at all times, because it is all changing SO MUCH ALL THE TIME. I imagine my heartstrings are just going to be all effed up till the end of time. I'm so moved; so grateful to be a mom, to be his mom. Love love love. Happy Mother's Day!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Declan's Birth Day

I guess this is going to bring the blog to a bit of a close. I hate when they drop off the map entirely, but I'm not ready to start a new blog or anything. So I might just do some periodic updates every month or so. Thanks for following/reading! It's been a fun experience for me. Now, when farmers across the globe get knocked up, I hope they can find some good reads in my blog, or they start their own. Power to the pregnant farmer!

Well, you all know I had a cold the week of my due date, etc. So I wasn't really feeling going into labor until that cleared up. The universe, however, had baby-birthing plans for me. We went to our prenatal check-up the morning of the 4th, my due date. She swept the membranes, which basically is sweeping a finger around the cervix (ouch!) to separate the membranes around the baby from the cervix. This releases hormones called prostaglandins which may kick-start your labor. We didn't want to do anything too drastic since I was sick, but she said it really just gets things going in the right direction, it doesn't induce labor.

Well, by 9 PM that night my labor had started. Early labor is supposed to be a breeze from what I've heard... not for me. It was intense from the beginning, not something I could sleep through or ignore. We were up all night, trying to get through the contractions, waiting for them to get close enough together to call the Birth Center (TBC) and head over there. We didn't get to TBC until 7 AM, and things were still moving pretty slow. I was exhausted, and dehydrated; I couldn't keep any fluids down. They gave me an IV to hydrate me, and some anti-nausea drug. I got checked the day before at the appointment, and at 7 AM and 9 AM the morning of the 5th. My dilation wasn't changing much. I was suffering. They suggested if things didn't start to move by 11 AM, we consider more fluids, and something to help me sleep. That way Gerard and I could retap our energy for what lay ahead.

However, again, the universe had different plans. We were to have this baby cracked out from sleep deprivation. By 11 AM, I was 4-5 cm dilated, moving into active labor. Which was really okay by me; labor stopping seemed unproductive to me at that point. Our friends Sue and Aby came at around 1 PM maybe, which changed the energy for the better. Though I, was still suffering. I could barely talk to them, couldn't really focus on what was going on besides contractions. Beginning, middle, and end I felt I could not handle it. It was too intense. But everyone cheered me on and I got through it, miraculously. Thankfully my active labor was pretty fast (didn't feel that way to me, but...), as was the pushing stage. And everyone said I was like a rockstar... knew exactly what to do, so strong, etc. I didn't feel like one, and but it was nice to hear. I guess at the very end, I felt a little bit like a rockstar. I finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel, and I got really excited to bring it home!

Bottom line: SO SO MUCH harder than I ever could have anticipated. Not sure if I would want to endure something like that ever again. But completely amazing and awesome. I watched, in a squat, while I brought my son into the world. I saw his head and body come out and Gerard helped catch him and cut the cord, etc. It was completely fascinating and totally surreal. And they passed my gorgeous blue baby (don't worry, he pinked up fast) to me for skin-to-skin contact and no words can really describe it.

Since we've been home it's been so great and so challenging. I'm not fully recovered yet, physically, and the whole thing is so life-changing and emotional. Gerard took off for 2 weeks, which has been so nice. We're all working at this together, getting to know each other, and fall even more in love. A part of me is sad, closing a chapter of my prior life (my relationship with Ger, my pregnancy and that unique connection I had with Declan, how things will change with friends, work, etc.) And the new chapter, with different sleep schedules, breastfeeding, a whole new amazing being in our life, can be daunting at times. So many big big changes. I almost felt a bit of an identity crisis of sorts. But it's just all so wonderful. And we just take it one day at a time.

Welcome to the world, Declan! We love you so much!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Declan!




Haha! I can't believe my last post was "Bored" and I went on about how noone ever has the baby on the due date, etc. I went into labor that night! Who knew?!


I want to write more, about our experience Thursday night into Friday and since we've brought Declan home, but alas, I need to wait until I have the time. I'm a new momma with a simply irresistable baby on her hands!


In the meantime,
the piece de resistance...


A GREAT BIG WELCOME TO DECLAN!




Thursday, November 4, 2010

Bored!

Being home sick is boring! I've been told to take off tomorrow as well so that's what I'm going to do and I got some books at the library which should help but when you don't feel like reading, and you can't nap, and there's never anything on t.v... what to do?! I have this list of things to do before baby but they all require a little too much effort.


I was saying to Gerard that being sick and getting out of school when you were younger was more fun. I don't know if I'm romanticizing it, but I don't think you felt as bad and you were out of school and you could play games with your grandmom or mom or whoever was taking care of you that day, be waited on hand and foot, etc. My mom did come yesterday and took very good care of me, which I am ever so grateful for, but we did not play Memory or Chutes & Ladders. =)


And of course, how could I not mention the haps with the baby? I'm trying to get well fast before he/she comes. Had my 40 week check-up today. All well. Still head down, baby likely dropped a couple weeks ago. He/she's very low in the pelvis, and the abdominal measurements have decreased a bit the past couple of weeks.


Today is the due date! But less than 5% of women have their babes on their due dates. (Also, only about 5% of women have their water break before labor, which was a surprise to me.) Again, the focus is just on getting well, and not really rushing this too much. It happens when it's meant to happen, when the baby and my body are ready. And technically you're not considered late until 42 weeks, that is when you'd likely be induced at the hospital. Not that we're going to wait that long to get this business going, just saying is all. =)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Sick


I thought I was out of the woods, but now the cold seems to be worse and I've lost a lot of sleep the past 2 nights. This pic describes it all. Yuck.
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Staying home today, going to try to sleep more... get tons of fluids, vitamin C, immune and respiratory tonics, etc.
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Please no baby while it's this bad! I didn't think I'd be wishing for things to go late, but this weekend or next week might be best given how I feel...